Fault in Our Minds

This blog isn’t about weird dreams or a review about the movie Fault In Our Stars. The feeling I have was triggered by the movie so, it’s good to do this blog right after watching the novel-turned-movie by John Green because I cried a lot on this movie, like in every part of it. The feeling just came pouring in and I just want to publish it right now without editing it, and just read it by tomorrow perhaps.

Anyway, let me just say that Shailene Woodley is an amazing actress and was very brave to have shown her bare face. She has no make-up at all. It’s obvious so I can tell, but of course, who knows? She is a new inspiration to me. She has all the freckles and other imperfections but still beautiful. That’s what girl power is all about! I love her!

I am going to talk about death. Sometimes, the way we witness death is different from the way other see it. Each experience is unique. Sometimes, it’s a matter of importance of that someone who passed away. It’s about the way a person stood in your life.

We say the same to a dying relative that we experience touch of death on someone we love but we only say that because it’s what’s appropriate and what’s supposed to be. Who doesn’t say they don’t love their relatives anyway? But it’s not the same with a relative or someone whom you dearly love; the way that a person touched and affected your life and became a big part of it. We can say, a close cousin who has become like a sister or a brother, your parents, grandparents, a friend or a best friend; it’s endless. We never know when life would be taken away from us.

Relating to the story of Hazel, her experience is unique. She has seen someone, a guy, who changed her life for a brief moment that feels forever, fade away slowly. She has seen Gus die each day, and with that her heart dies too. I was so caught up with the movie that I don’t even care if they’re laughing at me because they wouldn’t have understood the way each and everybody feels about it. The way they feel sometimes transpires in the story they see. Those teenager boys beside me are probably laughing but I don’t give a damn. It’s quite funny and amazing that a movie can really touch the way a person feels.

What I’m saying is, I don’t know how to end this blog. It’s just that I thought I wanted to blog about death and its unique experience it gives us. I just want to say how great John Green is for making this novel. He is like the author Peter Van Houten on the novel, only he’s not a douchebag. Maybe he wants to give us a feeling of Hazel and Gus’s hanging feeling and question on the book mentioned in the novel, An Imperial Affliction? He gave quite an ending but what happens to Hazel? Does she make it or not? What’s the life after that?

I promised myself that I would never ever read John Green’s creations again, but he is really a brilliant author so I break that promise. Next on my list is Paper Towns and Abundance of Katherines.