Well, crazy as it may seem but I studied my body’s reaction towards the work that I’m having. I am currently working in a call center, but decided (100% DECIDED), that I’m going to file my resignation on December, once I get the bonus. I’ve been waiting for this moment (the resignation part) to come, YEY!! Anyway, I’ve been with a call center for a while, around 8 months, but along my way towards the finish line, I’ve encountered some problems with me, physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Physically, a lot of changes happened to me. And the worst experience I had just now, November 8, 2011 made me decide to write this blog. I’ve been in the CR for 46 minutes trying to clean up dirt from my digestive system (if you know what I mean) LOL, I shouldn’t be talking about this but never mind, I’m a frank, crazy blogger anyway. I was constipated and can’t do what I have to do. I was already shouting for my mom. That was really scary. Good thing there’s no bleeding or such. Melo, a good friend of mine was also hospitalized because of this. Well, hemorrhoid it is! She had her operation last September, 2011 and of course we are prone to that due to prolonged sitting. I also noticed that my allergy rhinitis became worse; I have sudden break outs now which I wouldn’t normally have. And, my body became really weak! If I’m not doing anything, I fall asleep wherever I am. Even on my way home, my head was banging on the sides of the jeepney because of extreme sleepiness. I think we call that hypersomnia, totally opposite of insomnia. I am extremely, tremendously, sleepy! There was also a time when my left ear hurt a lot, I couldn’t take in calls! I have my mom checked it. She said my ear was swollen. I didn’t go to the doctor; I’m scared of what she’ll do to me so I just rest and after 3 days of being absent, it was gone. And when I go back to work, there it goes again. Little by little! In addition to that, I suddenly get dizzy. It feels like vertigo. Eye bags never disappears, pimple is way more than before, stiff neck, and ulcers and much more!
I’m saying spiritually also because, instead of going to church, I just fell asleep all day! When I woke up, I’ll have to eat and sleep again. So I see to it that I pray everyday.
Emotionally, because some TL’s would shout at you, leaving you feeling small and stupid. I want to shout “Hey! I didn’t study for 4 years just to be shouted by you who didn’t graduate at all. I should be the one stepping on you since I received better education than you!” I was scolded once or twice because I was sitting with my feet on the chair because I’m really having an extremely bad period that time. She said she would give me a disciplinary action “Insubordination”. Yeah, witch! You know who you are and I’m going to file an Incident report to what you’ve done. Wait for the revenge that will be served cold. I’m also hearing agents call TL’s’ “Boss”. This was the day I realized that I can’t work with a boss. I am my own Boss. So I think business is better for me, for my attitude. Well, I admit I have some kind of an attitude. But I really don’t want to call others, “Boss”. It’s so hard for me! (Sorry to my TL J)
Mentally. I am mentally tired of the job. People think, we’re just sitting there and what’s so hard with that? That’s why on Chapter 1 of this blog, I posted the nature of work so you would understand. It’s not about sitting at all! You have to fight (like a lawyer, they should hire lawyer, yeah, that’s what one my colleagues said) for what is wrong! I am mentally tired of thinking “I don’t want to go to work anymore” and dragging myself to work, crying before the shift. I don’t want to do it anymore.
I realized a lot of things on my stay with the company. Well, I want to thank them for giving me the opportunity to discover that life isn’t what I thought about when I was young and wanting to work and I want to be proud of myself for being able to stay that long and taking the hardships. I will find a job that will make me happy. They said, if you love your job, you’ll never work in your life. That’s what I’m looking for now. I probably would make a blog about that also: The Search for Real Happiness (Money Matters). This is my advice to you who’s reading this; Search for the thing that you really love the most, and work your way in! Find a job that you love.